What's a Mother To Do

This morning at 7:45 am they came for him. Very scary. My heart is still pounding and it was only to take the test. You see over the last month Arion and I have been discussing his future. Things have not gone well. At school he did not do good enough to hold on to his scholarship and also lost his government loan. Jim and I offered to pay for community college. Arion was not liking it. There were other options, but the gist of it was he really couldn't go back to where he was last year. Arion decision is to join the Army. I tried to push for the Air Force or Navy, but the more I pushed, the more he dug in his heels. He has listened to some stuff. He is waiting till after the test to find out what types of careers they can offer him. There may still be one thing that will hang him up. It's the meds. Some recruiters say you have to be off for a certain amount of time. Arion has been off for some time, but not the required amount. Other recruiters say because of his age and the fact that he has had a year of college that it can be waved and isn't as important. We'll see. Meanwhile I am trying to remember that he's 20 and has a right to make decision about his life. I have to let go. I hate this.